Suicidal, crying all the time, need help with depression & anxiety…?
topmodelfan Asked: Suicidal, crying all the time, need help with depression & anxiety…?
I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I tried teaching and I failed at that… now I'm working in customer service and I hate it. I hate the real world and I just want to go to school and travel. I'm just so miserable working. I have never been so miserable in my entire life. I went to my doctor and told her I was feeling anxious. I live in the constant fear that I'm going to lose my job. I hate myself and the way I look. All I can focus on is my failures. Sometimes I feel like I would be better off if I just killed myself because I don't know what I'm supposed to do and it seems like I struggle with everything I ever attempt. I got prescribed antidepressants from my doctor and I've been on them for a week… I don't feel any different, I just feel like I can't sleep and I'm still crying all the time and complaining to my family all the time… I really need help and I don't know what to do. I just want to jump in front of a train and end everything because I just can't deal with this anymore
Well, call the doctor and tell him/her that you still feel terrible. Also, tough as it is, you've gotta try to suck it up and be tough. Life ain't easy, but it is better than the alternative.
Can your doctor describe antidepressants??…… Also, you say you want to be in school, so what's stopping you? I attended class at night because I had to work in the day, sure it was difficult, but since I really wanted to be in school, I made sacrifices and did i what I had to do.Get involved in school and then start looking into foreighn exchange programs.There are tons of grants and scholarships for international studies.Finally, if you feel like you will hurt yourself right now, go to your er, and let someone know.